All the while I thought money had very little hold on me. When I started this Lomoloco businesses, not only did I open opportunities to finance my expensive hobby, support my passion and earn extra cash on the side… I also opened opportunities to get to know myself better.
As my small business started to grow, I immediately wanted to pull out my investment, but I figured, why not let it grow some more? But as I tried to expand my products, I actually hard a hard time choosing what to get and how many. I had a lot of mixed feelings as I brought in new types of film not because it was never part of my plans. What I experienced was fear and possibly even doubt.
I realized that I tried to avoid having very few cash on hand left — I cringed at the thought of my savings account becoming zero even if it meant my refrigerator would be stocked up with film. As I tried to figure out why, I realized that all my life I was the one who saved my school allowance and birthday gifts all the time. It’s only recently that I started buying expensive gadgets clothes and shoes.. But I always had money saved for that rainy day.
I’m a “hoarder”. For me, “money means security”. “Life”. “I will die without it!” Hehehe.
Upon realizing how I made money mean in my life, it was easy and as quick as a flip on a switch for me to loosen my grip on my wallet. Now, I can make business choices powerfully. I can take risks and not be anxious with how it’s all gonna turn up.
I guess aside from doing what I really enjoy and earning from it, the most value I got out of my investment is growth: My business is still small, yes. And I have a LOT more to learn, true. And I can’t wait!